S is for . . .

. . .Sex

And fantasies. I don't get near enough. There are a few things I like, sex related. In no particular order, here goes. I wish I didn't have to wear a condom. There is only one person who I don't have to wear a condom with. The feeling is incredible. It's dirty and wet and messy and I love it. And it helps she gets really wet when we fuck. I love getting my ears licked. Guaranteed to get me turned on. I remember years ago getting a BJ to completion from a girl, and she swallowed. I would love to have that happen again. The orgasm was even more intense just because she swallowed. I also like getting deepthroated. Slapping her lips with my dick, grabbing her hair, controlling the movement and the depth. That's the dominant in me coming out. I like to perv at women. No surprise there. I like watching. I have been to swingers clubs where all I did was watch. Seeing double and triple penetrations. Dicks in pussy, ass and mouth. I love eating pussy and would love for the opportunity to involve sex toys like vibrators and dildos. I got the chance to use a dildo on a woman a few times but was paying for it, so there was no oral sex. I love anal sex. My ex introduced me to it in the beginning of our relationship and I was hooked. She loved it as well, obviously. The feeling of doing something taboo, the tightness, and the trust and intimacy involved. Of course, since we separated years ago, most of the times I've done it, I had to pay. There have been other instances where I didn't have to pay but that leads into the next section.

. . . Secrets

I have had sex with a TS. So the secret is that I'm Bi. Though I don't want to admit it. The times I have done this have been in BDSM themed situations. The person involved went the whole hog. Dressing, living like a woman with all the shaving and mannerisms, real hair, etc. I think they live full time in this role. Still has the man parts though. Their thing is humiliation and Masochism. To go into some detail, they like to be face fucked then fucked up the ass. So therein lies the hook for me. Face fucking someone then anal sex, with some light bondage. Very perverted, I know, but that was the secret. Haven't done that in a while though. Someone who is a real woman has been more my thing recently. Yes, A, I'm referring to you. If you ever speak to me again after this. You asked a question once, what was the most outrageous thing I've ever done. That was it. Now about the Bi thing. I don't fancy men per se. It's more about doing something outside the norm. About the BDSM thing. I don't watch gay porn, things like that. The situations I was in, the TS/men were in full character, as women. I know they were men but could see past that. Get into the scene. It does help that I'm a pervert and a fantasist.

. . . Shame

Being from the Caribbean, homophobia is a big thing, so obviously I'm more than a bit embarrassed to admit my secret. And that I've done it on more than one occasion. And that I will probably do it again, while I'm single. I sincerely doubt if I was seeing someone on the regular that I would. I'm sure I could find another woman who would let me fuck her up the ass. Without paying for it. Does it make it better that I'm a top? The closest I've come to anything near my asshole is being rimmed. No desire to have anything shoved up there. No problems doing it to someone else though.